Broken Hallelujah

Saturday was a day filled with happiness, fun, and yes, a little running around like crazy.  The day began with Carlton leaving for a basketball competition in Omaha.  My little guy, and I literally mean LITTLE, got his first rebound and had two assist.  Madelyn had her second gymnastics competition of the season where she tied for FIRST place with one of her team mates!  As if that wasn't enough happiness, me, Madelyn and Laura (my 20 year old daughter) headed to Omaha to see Mandisa and Laura Story in concert.  If you couldn't tell by my last post, I love Mandisa!  Her transparency and genuineness fuel my desire to lay down my masks.  The concert was a wonderful time of clapping, singing songs of praise and worship, screaming, and dancing to Mandisa's songs.


My "little" 11 year old



Madelyn & Rylie



At Mandisa, Laura Story Concert

 







So, in honor of my being blessed in song Saturday evening, I'm going to spend the next few blog posts sharing some songs, a lot of them by Mandisa, and some by other artists as well, that have helped me through some pretty tough spots and downward spirals of my depression.

The first one I'd like to share with you is Mandisa's Broken Hallelujah.  This song spoke to me during a time where I was so overwhelmed that I couldn't find the words to pray.  I would try to pray.  But my thoughts were so boggled in my mind and it seemed as if I had so much I needed to pray about, that the words just wouldn't come.  I clung to Romans 8:26 which says, "Likewise the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses.  For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered."  I trusted that God knew my heart, my mind, and my needs.  He knew what I wanted and needed to pray about but couldn't find the words to express.  Better yet, the Spirit was praying for me!  This song spoke to me so deeply during that time of prayerlessness.  Because all I had to offer God was a broken hallelujah and that was okay.

Have you ever been in this place, girlfriend?  Are you in this place now?  I know it is a soul wrenching place to be.  Offer God your broken hallelujah this morning and allow the Spirit to pray for you today.  Below is a YouTube link for the song with lyrics.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AkZTQTe1HZI

Until next time - hang in there and hold on to Jesus!