Why do we Fight Him?

Everytime I would think about my blog this weekend I would ask God to show me which song I should post.  There have been so many that have helped me through some rough patches with my depression and anxiety.  About 2 years ago, when I was at quite a low point, I burned a CD of songs which I titled, "When I Need Your Strength."  One of the songs on this CD is "Fight" by Point of Grace.  Yes, I was a huge POG fan back in the day.  Don't like them as much now that they've gone all country sounding though.    This particular  song is about fighting God.  About how we try to do things on our own strength.  How we can be selfish, foolish, prideful, doubtful and fight God every step of the way.  Sound familiar?  It sure does to me!  I fight God a lot, cause I'm one of those sisters that likes to be in control!  Unfortunately, I'm one of God's stubborn daughters that He has to keep reminding  I am not in control, HE is.  If only I had as much patience with the people in my life as God has with me!  It seems the more I fight Him, the more my emotions have control over my actions.  Don't get me wrong, here.  There are times when I am trusting in Him, know He is in control, and the anxiety attacks still comes.  They've been almost daily lately.  But God has provided me with an amazing counselor, an amazing psychiatrist (who actually listens & talks to you), and medicines that help me.  So my suggestions to you today, girlfriend, are the following:

• Daily tackle that inward battle to fight God. 
• If you don't have a good counselor and you are struggling, find one.
• If you think medication would help you, don't be afraid to ask for help that way.  My psychiatrist tells me I wouldn't believe the amount of Moms that have to take medication.  My pride still gets the best of me in this area sometimes, but it really is okay.

Fight

v.1  How clever is my pride, how foolish is my mind

To think I'm in control when I've really lost it all

How brillant is my greed for what it says I need

And then I've come to find I'm empty on the inside

Chorus:  Real, my heart is aching to be real

So I'm coming to You

All of my broken motives, all my selfish dreams

All of my foolishness now I understand where it leads

I wanna be in Your love, I wanna be so much more

I know You're reaching out so what am I fighting Your for

So what am I fighting Your for

v.2  How quick is my doubt to leave my heart without

The presence of Your peace so that I scarce believe

How pardoned is my guilt to crush the life You built

And to keep me far away from any kind of shame

Bridge:  Cause only You can save me

And only You can change me

And only You can love me

Here I come, here I come

So I come to You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XHQLHdRafy8

Until next time, hang in there and hold on to Jesus!